Kamu pernah bilang, ada tiga tahap yang harus dilewati tentang perasaanmu pada diriku. Pertama suka, lalu sayang, kemudian cinta. 

Kamu pernah bilang, rasa suka itu seperti suka dengan cokelat pahit favoritmu. Kamu mungkin masih bisa hidup walau tanpanya.

Kamu pernah bilang, rasa sayang itu seperti setengah hati yang sudah terisi. Kalau kosong kembali, entah bagaimana mencari penggantinya. 

Kamu pernah bilang, rasa cinta itu adalah mencintai semua keburukan yang kumiliki, seberapa pun aku pernah melukaimu, cinta itu tidak pernah melarikan dirinya. 

Kamu bilang, "Mungkinkah aku bisa membenci diriku sendiri?" Ya, karena kamu mencintaiku sama dengan kamu mencintai dirimu sendiri. Kamu cinta aku seluruhnya. Utuh.

Jakarta, Februari 2013

What I Have Learned

Last week has been a rough week for me. My mom was flying back to Jakarta for 11 days, my brother was completely busy with students day at campus, day to night. And me.. spending my days work at home, totally alone. It hasn't that bad between first to third days, until I got PMS- which is I called the most terrible problem for every woman and I still can't handle it, then problems came. 

I cannot tell you what the problems are, but seriously they made me crazy for whole week! I could not find anybody to share. You know the feeling when you have a problem, everybody (even your closest friend) seems won't understand you. I just could not find a right person to share. Until Mom came home, (okay.. I don't know how to say it right) I let myself to mencurahkan semua isi hati. And then surprisingly, God have an answer to for me. Suddenly, I feel good. Really good. God said this,

 original picture: here

Sometimes we want to skip a lesson of our life, especially when we struggle on a problem. Or maybe we take the 'short-cut', we run away. Yes you can run, but I can one hundred percent guarantee, you cannot hide. Remember when we take an monthly exam in school? To make sure you are getting through all lessons in whole semester, you have to pass the test. When you pass, you are allowed to the next level. When you fail, you will have a remedial. Same thing in our life. The only thing we have to do is to learn every lesson that happens in our life. When we learned, we pass, then we turn to the next leaf.

The only matters is all about yourself. Are you willing to learn every lesson in your life? Let them teach how you to live this life. Good luck (:

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Anyway, I have a very very very great news, but I can't share it here for now. If it's about a great news, I always can't hold myself to share in my blog. I promise I will tell it when the right time is coming. Are you curious? I bet you are! 

Tomorrow is a Monday again, make you sure you have a wonderful Sunday night. See you in next post and stay awesome!

I MET GIRLS' GENERATION!

Yes! Can you believe that?

I met my nine gorgeous girls...





in my dream.

Okay I sound pathetic. The truth is, I didn't attend the concert, which is RIGHT NOW, in Jakarta. And one of my best friends is currently in the venue and sending me some pictures. HOW COULD YOU? T_T

Attending Girls' Generation concert is one of my dream this year. I have been dreaming of this for two years and still not get the chance. I remember once I prayed, the girls are gonna held a solo concert in Indonesia, and then they made it. I knew about the concert two months ago, at the end of July. It's kinda late, too late maybe. When I searched for the tickets, the best spot is SOLD OUT, just in a couple days! I don't wanna spend my money for the lowest price, because I had a promise to myself if someday I could join a concert, it's gonna be my first official SNSD concert, and I want to make it perfect.

But, the problem is, I don't have too much money to pay. I was thinking maybe this is just not the right time, but once again, I hate to give up on my dream ):

I am so sad, truthfully. I was trying to be happy for anyone who is attending the concert right now. And I realized I am just being so childish today. I was babbling with my boyfriend about this and all can he said was, "maybe next time, you will get the chance." *meh so cliche :P*

Well, maybe for me it's just all about priority. My number one priority, for now, is all about finding a real job. It's impossible to ask my parents for money. Money is just another problem I should solve for the sake of growing-up-part.

So, I guess, I will see you next time, girls. For those who are going right now, please have some fun! It's our dream come true, they finally come to our country!

Sorry about this post, I just have to let this feeling out and blog is the best and right place. Never mind me, just stay awesome!

PS: this is me, wearing my Girls' Generation official goodies. Me ready for the concert too! 

5 Pictures of Tuesday 03

 (1) My packages from China finally arrived yesterday! I have opened the first box yesterday and this morning I was busy with this one. It contains LOTS of books and it was SOO heavy. I was keep sweating when I unloaded this thing haha but I am so excited because I ended up sitting and looking for some memories when I was in college (LOL). But anyway, welcome home my stuffs!

 

(2) This little adorable one was founded in the box! I almost forgot about this slippers, it was given my dear ex-roomie (her name is Tika) and she said I have to wear this in new home. I am so really happy wearing this all day in the house. So yeah, hello kitty kitty! Welcome home, you! 

 (3) I will give this picture a caption like "home without Mom". Mom went to Jakarta for several days and I cooked everyday meals something like this: frozen foods (chicken sticks!) and 'surprisingly-tastes-good' veggies sautes! Come home soon, Mom (':

(4) I got this packet today and it was from Tika. So apparently I left one of my dress in my old dorm lol. When she went home she also took this with her and sent me back. Thanks dear! 

 (5) Notice something different with my bookcase?

YES. IT GROWS WITH SOME BOOKS.

I brought some books to China in my first year and I also bought some again when was there. My bookcase is so pretty and colorful with the books. Well yeah, they are all my babies ♥

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Last week went pretty fast! Now I am bringing back again pictures for today. I have done three series about "5 Pictures of Tuesday", all pictures were taken at my home. I guess I need to go out to share more pictures from the outside. This island is too beautiful and I will regret if I don't share the pictures with you all. I hope you guys not getting bored, if you are, it is okay too because I love doing this post ((:

So, good evening and stay awesome! 

Morning Routine | How I Usually Start My Day

 credit: google.com

Routine sounds kinda boring because it belongs to 'normal' people. To be honest, I am a morning person. Now, why morning routine sounds like kinda important?

We should know that routine trains us to be more disciplined and built our personality- like what Jeff Goins said, "because routines are all about you and your personality". So let's say, we can see people's personalities how they begin their morning.

Another thing, morning day also helps us to be more focused on our task and get along through the day and also helps you to have a good mood to start the day. 

A morning routine is not an obligation, it's only something you may try to begin. If you know something brings you a positive thing, it's okay to try, right? Like my Mom, I never saw her eats oatmeal in the morning before, but now since she said it's good to her body, she just gives it a try.

Everyone's morning routine is different. You can make it on your own, don't copy others. Because everyone's habits are different too. So this is how my morning routine looks like these days:

1. Wake up. Usually around 7 to 8.

2. Drink lot of water. This is important to me and every member of my family do this, we have our glasses or tumbler in our own room.

3. Take a shower.

4. Daily Bread. Or it said morning devotional.

"Very early in the morning, while it was still dark, Jesus got up, left the house and went off to a solitary place, where He prayed." -Mark 1:35

5. Write journal. Sometimes you never know if you have a (weird) dream and you just need to take a note about it. So journaling it is. 

6. Make breakfast. Usually I make by myself, but sometimes Mom cooks for us too. Don't ever feel guilty for having breakfast. That's my motto. Carbs for breakfast? Why not? Nasi goreng or mie goreng are the best! My other favorite breakfast is toast with scramble eggs. 

7. Check in Social Media. This one usually during breakfast. I know I know, bad habit. 

8. Clean the house. 

9. Make coffee, then work. I always make coffee when I start to work. Oh, I work at home anyway. 

No one's morning routines are perfect. It takes commitment and persistence. If you fail your routine, don't give yourself pressure because it makes even worst. If I woke up late, I fix my sleep at night. By doing it every day, you will find yourself being a well-organized person and have a good personality. And, morning routine helps you have a better day today, tomorrow and so on.

You may check out this awesome website: www.mymorningroutine.com contains different people to share their different morning routines. 

So what your morning routine look like? Mind to share with me? (: 

My Writing Essentials

Hello people!

I rarely talk about my writing habits or anything my writing life related. So today I am gonna share with you my three essentials when I do my writing job and these all based on my very personal experiences. Let's take a look!

1. Every writer loves coffee. I don't ever doubt that. Few days ago, I finally realized is not coffee that I really need while writing, I am back to the basic mineral water instead. We all know the only healthy drink is mineral water, there's no other. Amazing fact about mineral water: it re-boost your energy and also helps you to stay hydrated. Because activity like writing, it seems like you only sit for few hours and keep your fingers busy. The truth is sitting for a one hour will make you feel tired as same as while you are standing do nothing for one hour. However, when I am writing I easily feel thirsty so I keep a glass of water by my side and refill it whenever it's empty. Coffee maybe makes me awake, sometimes. But it would be better if you take a nap when you tired, not too longer, 30 minutes is enough. After that, you will be refreshed and ready to write again.

Remember, your health is always number one. So, mineral water is my very first essential when I am writing.

Remember this glass? With the Hello Kitty cover on it. I always keep this glass around me whenever I write. And the Hello Kitty makes me happy.. *eep* 

 

2. The place when you write probably the other important thing to notice. Usually I write on my desk--which is in my room (watch how it looks like on my room tour vlog). Now, I love to work in the dining room and also love writing in living room. One thing I like writing in the living room because I can watch TV. Sometimes when I watch random thing on TV I'll get inspirations. Do you know, I got idea for writing this post when actually I watched Big Bang Theory while a go. Strange I know, but I am thankful, I made a post on Friday noon! 

Where are you usually write? In a coffee shop? In your Mom's bedroom? Maybe at the beach? Just make sure you feel comfortable and let the ideas come out!

3. Do you usually work while your social media accounts are in active mode? Well, I tell you now, TURN IT OFF. Not like TV, social media and internet are the worst distractions for me. You said, "Oh, I need internet for help me get some inspirations." Trust me I usually say that to make excuse before. But today I want to tell you and also myself, start writing without the internet.. or social media. You get enough inspirations and all you have to do now is just write. I am writing this without my internet connection on (I always make another draft on Words before I copy-paste it to Blogger).

So, whatever your distractions are, just cut it off and happy writing.

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Any of you guys share about your writing or blogging essentials? Leave them on my comment box below, I would like to know. Happy Friday and stay awesome!

5 Pictures of Tuesday 02

 

(1) Guess what I and Mom made for lunch? *drooling*

Oh anyway, don't they like a dinosaur's eggs? LOOL 

 

(2) My kind of morning breakfast. Actually the sandwiches doesn't belong to me, I finished mine and my brother left this little piece and I have to finish it :P And my favorite (healthy) drink, Ovaltine! I still like the taste when I usually drink in Guangzhou, this one is too chocolate, but still good! I start to reduce my caffeine and choose to drink this kind of milk instead. It gives me more energy to work and Mama said it will give me more calcium (I am young, I am a girl, I need more calcium *noted*). I didn't say I give up for coffee (how can??), but I try not to drink it everyday. 

PS: I lost my 1kg after I cut my coffee in a week. Is that awesome??

 

 

 (3) I love The Perks of Being Wallflower. Not because Logan, even Emma, but I do really love the story. It's even beautiful if you read the book. Stephen Chbosky is a great writer, this one is his first book. And I am glad he wrote the screenplay for the movie. I just finished read it via eBook, if you want to read you can find it on Google. And oh, the picture above is one of my favorite word from Charlie. 

 (4) I HAD A TERRIBLE BAD DREAM LAST NIGHT. 

And tonight I am gonna sleep with Mom. 

The only thing I need when I woke up from my bad dream is listening to music. So I grab my phone, plug my earphone, and try to erase that bad dream. Don't ask me about the dream, because it's very bad ): and also my brother said I watch too much movies..

 (5) A little reminder (: 

We simply love each other because we know He loved us first. This is the most easy love math I ever believe in ♥

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I am starting to love this section. Because whenever I remember today is Tuesday, I am gonna take some pictures that tell story so I can share with you all. It has been a week since the last post, I guess I have to write more instead of sharing pictures, because that makes me feel like cheating LOL.

Anyway, September is coming already and good luck for everybody who starts a new semester in school or college. For anybody who feels sad about getting back to school, please don't. I can feel you my friend, just enjoy it and you are gonna learn lots of new things! Let the fire burn and stay awesomeee!